My Foot Is Paralyzed
Just because the world seems to be spinning out of control because the Coronavirus Pandemic has closed and canceled our plans, it doesn’t mean the problems we were all dealing with when it started have receded. On the contrary, recent events have likely exacerbated whatever you were already dealing with.
For myself, I’m still crippled. The stress of the pandemic hasn’t changed any of the problems I have with my body that hasn’t functioned properly since 1999 when I suffered a severe stroke. In fact, it has made it worse.
The damage to my central nervous system (my brain) has caused to the signals to my muscles to go haywire. I have abnormal, severe, painful muscle tension in my left upper extremity. This gets worse during times of stress. And here they are.
Every three months for the past 13 years, I have gotten Botox injections to temporarily calm these muscles down. The last set of injections was January 2, 2020.
My next appointment was set for tomorrow. I go to a rehabilitation hospital for these appointments.
I live in New Jersey, the most densely populated state and second only to New York as the hardest hit state in the country.
As the social distancing guidelines became tighter this week with the recommendation to not even venture out to the grocery store, I opted to cancel my appointment.
So, my muscle tension will be a lot worse without the usual things I can do to help the pain like having regular massages (also closed and canceled).
I very much hope this will be my biggest hardship related to current events. I have been thinking of those who were in the middle of cancer treatments, divorces, dialysis treatments, infertility treatment, financial hardship, dealing with sick or disabled children or elderly parents through all of this. These problems don’t get canceled or closed because of social distancing. Instead, they have become more difficult and complicated to manage.
I am profoundly grateful that still having a paralyzed foot and abnormal muscle tension from a stroke seem to be my biggest problems right now.