The title says it all but since today is Valentine’s Day I’ll go on. All of us have had loved ones taken from us before we were ready to let them go. We have seen people we love subjected to life’s random strikes of illness or injury. The only thing we know for certain is that we never know. I never imagined I would have a stroke when I was 35 and pregnant, but I did. On that day in 1999, everyone who loved me was forced to ponder what it would be like to lose me.
I woke up yesterday full of piss and vinegar. It became imperative that I plan a trip to visit my sister in North Carolina. She moved there three years ago, and every time I planned a trip to see her new home, life got in the way and I never went. I had a dream the night before where her husband called me and said “Something happened to your sister, you better get down here.” It hit me hard that this could actually happen.
She is my only sister. She is a pain in the ass. She can be a plain asshole sometimes. She has quite a few “issues”. But, there is no one else in the world who will ever be what she is to me.
Between the dream I had and my own history with the uncertainty of life, I decided I was not going to be that person who doesn’t speak to or see a close family member because we could all be dead inside of ten minutes. I called her immediately and worked out a schedule for a visit. Then I bought a plane ticket. I won’t let life get in the way this time.
If you are procrastinating about making amends with anyone, ask yourself what are you waiting for? Tomorrow is not promised to any of us. Don’t forget to tell everyone who matters to you that you love them. Today and every day.
Thank you for reading :)
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