Clusterfuck-ish

Not So Great Expectations

Think about all of the times you were disappointed. You can always compare the outcome of something to what you expected. If we never expect anything, we will never be disappointed.

I had very specific expectations about what I would get if I won the silent auction bid for a “custom made show shirt” at the gala fundraiser. There was a uniquely beautiful horse show competition shirt on display. I read the word “custom” to mean the shirt would be made to fit me. As the evening went on, I kept bidding up on the shirt. Due to both the fact that it was a benefit for my adaptive riding program and show shirts can retail for hundreds of dollars, I went up to $275. The shirt I’d bought on eBay years ago never quite fit right.

I won the bid at $275. It didn’t seem like that much for a custom made garment. I went home that night in November with a certificate for one custom made shirt from an equestrian fashion company. I was not in a hurry to redeem it because I was planning to have a tummy tuck in January so I expected to be a smaller size by then. I didn’t want to be custom fitted at my pre surgery size and shape. I was looking forward to next year’s horse show when I could show off in my beautiful custom made shirt in my post- op size.